Doug Goldstein

So it’s been a few days since I posted here. Things started to look up after that last post. I had a really nice Saturday (I didn’t go to Home Depot or Bed Bath and Beyond though, if you don’t get the reference… too bad) until I got sent home and had to drive late at night and falling asleep at the wheel. It was not fun. But now things are starting to go back to the negative side of the board. Anyone ever hear the Ryan Cabrera song On The Way Down? Yes, it’s a really terrible song musically but lyrically it really describes how I feel. In the song he talks about a girl, however for me it’s really two girls but they’re not quite suited for the role.. They just have to do for now. So, if you’re the girl that thinks she can fill that role… apply with-in.

But on a side note, seriously… When you do something for someone…. How hard is it to actually say “Hey.. that was sweet. Thanks.” instead of “Oh. Yeah. That.. I saw it.”. I mean seriously, when you do something from the bottom of your heart and so lovingly and caringly and you get THAT as an answer. It really makes you resentful. I don’t think I’m asking for much.

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Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

–Robert Frost

It looks like I’ve managed to take the wrong road. It sure has made a difference… a difference for the worst. I always read this poem and would think, yeah I have taken a different path. I could look at myself and compare myself to others and see a diference. Sure there’s some of my friends or people I know that I could see we were on the same path but I always felt like we were off the mainstream path but then again, many people had tried to take it. So I could see a parallel between this poem and my life. But really, this path were on everyone…. worst choice… go with the other.

Officially, I’ve decided the path where I went wrong was the decision to come to Florida… to attend UF. I want to thank all my friends for the good times I’ve had with you guys and girls. But really in the grand scheme of things, I should have gone to Penn State where I wanted to go in the first place. I’m done.

Someone told me last night that the battle may be lost but the war’s not over…. The war might not be over but I’ve given up. I don’t care anymore. Had Patten given up, not cared anymore, in 1944 would we have won World War II? No. The war would have continued and resulted in a loss.

Directions to my destination

I just don’t care…

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